Once I had read Chapter 2 of "The Joy Diet" - on Truth - I knew I did not want to actually follow through, and I didn't want to post a response.
The questions "What am I feeling" and "What hurts?" were loaded ones for me. I have been holding in feelings for some time - that is just what I do. The past month has been especially difficult - I have felt alternately overwhelmed, angry, fearful, hurt.
Recognizing and stating those feelings was a very difficult thing to do. When I read those questions, I felt all the emotions I have been holding in for the past few weeks surge. A couple of times this week, I have had tears on my drive from work.
Instead of posting, I visited other blogs. It was visiting Sheree's blog and reading her list of lies and truths , that it really struck me what I needed to do. I would create my own list (thanks Sheree for the inspiration!):
1. LIE: I can't teach.
TRUTH: I have 2 very challenging students and I am getting behaviour plans in place for them to help control their behaviour and bring success for them.
2. LIE: Cancer kills.
TRUTH: The doctor is optimistic about the skin cancer on my husband's face and the surgery in 2 weeks will be successful.
3. LIE: I am a victim again.
TRUTH: I will fight my ex in court and make all those people aware of what a truly despicable man he is. And maybe receive restitution.
4. LIE: I can't lose weight and it is difficult to exercise.
TRUTH: I can lose weight - I just have to keep focused on what it means to be healthy. I need to dance and dance often!
These are the lies that are affecting me the most right now. There are other stories I need to adjust but I want to focus on rewriting these 4 scripts in my head so that I can move forward.
This will be an ongoing project for sure!
My truth card became a collage of hurtful things that need to be exposed (grief, cancer, depression) and expressions of bringing joy into myself. Marilyn's photos made me think of the movie star persona vs the little lost girl!
This week I read a post by Connie of Dirty Footprints Studio on a Yoga trick that will keep you healthy. As I read it I realized that little trick would also be perfect for our moments of nothing!
The secret is simply practicing Legs Up the Wall! Visit Connie here.
I am slowly improving on this practice as well!