Happy Mother's Day to all.
This is now a day that will be so very different from all that have come before. For this is the first Mother's Day without my Mom. Last Mother's Day she was still with us, although in the hospital. I still find it difficult. I will go to phone her, which I did almost every day for years, and then realize I can't. Some days are harder than others. I am sure there are others who experience the same emotions.
I found a book shortly after her death that has helped: "Finding Your Way After Your Parent Dies", by Richard Gilbert. One of the exercises was to start compiling a list of "Things I want to Remember About Mom". I am still adding to that list!
I just found another book at a book sale - "Motherless Daughters" by Hope Edelman. I haven't started reading seriously but it looks like it will be a healing book.
One description of the book on the back cover really says it all: "How to understand grief: not as a passage, but as an ongoing journey." An apt description. It is really not something you recover from, but something you move through.
But Mother's Day is also a time to celebrate our ownselves as mothers. I am proud of my children and step-children. Our grandchildren now add to that expanding circle of love. Seeing them, watching them grow is a blessing.
I wish everyone a Happy Mother's Day. May love fill your day.